From my personal experience, one of the reason for holding back my emotion was lack of audience who understand the joy (or pain) involved. One such instance, I still remember, from my engineering entrance test preparation days. I was pretty ordinary in physics, so when i cracked a tough(by my standards!) Irodov problem by myself, i was very much excited and i wanted to share my joy with someone. But people around me were unable to connect with me on that level. The fact that I dropped for a year and was preparing all by myself in the confinement of my house did not help the cause. My father, a lawyer, my mom, a housewife, my younger sister, a 9th grade student, none of them were anywhere near my zone. The only person who could have understood was my elder brother, but he was out pursuing his engineering. In those days, diary was my only companion. I used to share all these little successes and failures with my dairy.
OK. Coming out of Flashback, there are many thoughts which does not come to us when we are among people. And even if they come, we seldom express them as we fear we may not find takers. So, diary was a place for such 'politically incorrect' views.
In addition to that, many people are truthful to themselves, even if they are not so with the world . For such people, diary was also a place for dirty little secrets. That first kiss!, I dont want anybody to know about it, but at the sametime, I don't want it to go undocumented as well.
All these contents used to make diary a personal 'thing'.
Today, as I start this blog, I am going public with my diary!
I know, somewhere out there, there are people who will understand my excitement when I write how I solved an urgent issue in production.
I know, I will find takers for my politically incorrect views.
I am not an aspiring writer, movie-critic or philosopher. I am not a citizen journalist or an I-reporter as well. I am a Chemical Engineering Graduate who landed up in SAP Consulting. And none of them were by choice!
Literature and language are alien to me. The only language in which I have some competency is ABAP. So, I am gearing up for some writing here. Looking forward to your encouragement.
PS: I am not sure whether I will share my dirty little secrets here! So, probably I will still use my diary for that :)
